Again, more trick than treat

I think I forgot to submit my time card for the last half of this month. All the stress about my j0b search has caused me to forget things like this once in a while.

I had a nice time at the Howl-O-Ween party last night. Furry meets and parties tend to have a Jekyll and Hyde effect on me. One moment, people are greeting and hugging me and I feel like part of the group, then everyone walks away and/or turns their backs on me for a while and I feel alone and unwanted. It's sort of like having P.C.D. every 10-15 minutes. Hopefully I won't feel this as much tonight at Boo At The Zoo.

As expected, ACS/Xerox rejected my application. I guess honesty isn't a trait they like in their employees.

Jekyll and Hyde: Together Again

Weekly calorie average: 1,800.7
Days above 2,000 calories: 0

I had another great year at Boo At The Zoo. I did feel myself have a few anxlety attacks around the kids, but they were minor. I also had a bit of the Jekyll and Hyde feeling as well. I guess most of the parents thought I was just some creepy guy hanging around with the fursuiters instead of being part of the group. After a while, I just gave up and stood to the side.

Another depressing thought hit me during that time. Nicona and Snow Queen (the furry couple who volunteer at the zoo) have been married over 20 years. I'm roughly the same age as them. If I am lucky enough to find and marry the right woman in the next few years, I will be in my 60s on our 20th anniversary (if I'm fortunate enough to live that long.) Unfortunately, that will involve finding a company that is open-minded enough to hire me at a decent wage. I don't think that will happen anytime soon. I keep waiting for a company to prove me wrong on this. So far, it hasn't happened.