I think this afternoon is the closest I’ve come to actually breaking down and crying in the past 8 years. My body has gotten used to me holding in my emotions since I was a kid (so I wouldn’t get teased.) Now on the rare times I truly feel like crying, it lasts maybe 2-3 seconds then my body basically says “stop.”
I’ve spent the last three years looking and applying for a full-time weekday job to supplement my weekend job. The biggest roadblock I’ve come across is potential employers that require me to work weekends, forcing me to give up my weekend job. I’ve been working at KRCC for close to 10 years. This is the longest, most enjoyable and most secure job I’ve had, and my current chances of being fired are less than 1% (not to mention this is what I went to college to learn to do.)
One second job I took (telemarketing) fired me after two days because I didn’t make enough sales. Another job (telephone surveys) had sporadic hours and weeks-long stretches with no available hours. The most recent job (Fort Carson dining hall worker) fired me after a month due to staff reductions. If I had quit KRCC to do any of these jobs on weekends, I’d be even further up Shit Creek now.
I could live on $17,000-22,000 a year if my parents still pay some of my bills (condo HOA, utilities and food,) but I know I can’t rely on them forever. I would need to make at least $25,000-30,000 to be truly self-sufficient. These totals include putting some money toward paying off my debt and saving up for emergencies and the occasional vacation.
My job counselor just e-mailed a few openings to me. They are all part-time retail positions instead of full-time, but I'll still apply. The job postings don't say exactly what the pay rate is, and they also say "Minimum one weekend day per week." I will have to contact the company to see exactly when I'd have to work on Saturday and/or Sunday and how much I'd actually get. The listing says hours are flexible, but some companies define flexible as "you can either work 8 to 5 or 8:30 to 5:30." I will give up or reschedule any leisure activities (Toastmasters, OA, etc.) which interfere with the job, but I hope to keep that to a minimum.