Jerzei Collie's journal

I can't find my passport or my travel case. I'm sure they're buried under a pile of junk somewhere in my condo. I haven't thoroughly cleaned my place in a long time due to depression. If I can't find my passport by the end of July, I'll get a new one since I'll need it for my October cruise.

I'm glad I had one of my large catering bags in the car tonight. I picked up my groceries from Dad's house after dinner, and there were three bags.

I felt depressed all morning and part of the afternoon. I finally managed to get out of bed when I decided to pick up dinner later today. I used one of the coupons I have for Teriyaki Madness and ordered their spicy tofu bowl with brown rice, plus a chicken eggroll. I'll go get it in about 45 minutes.

I had an appointment Monday morning with a neuropsychiatrist to see if I could find a better treatment for my depression. I was told the survey I filled out beforehand showed signs of bipolar disorder. I was given new prescriptions for Abilify and Lexapro which are better at targeting depression. I hope this combination will work much better. I haven't been making as many DoorDash deliveries lately because I've wanted to just stay in bed all day.

I got some pizza, spaghetti and salad from an Italian restaurant Monday. I had an offer for a free pepperoni pizza with a $25 purchase.

Over the weekend, I got a box of Bisquick mix, plus milk and eggs, to make some of the pies from my Bisquick cookbook. I made a turkey taco pie last night. It was supposed to be a chicken taco pie, but I only had turkey.

An online talk show I like played some audio of the host undergoing ketamine therapy. This is one of the therapies I'm considering trying to cure my depression. The only other reference to ketamine I'm familiar with is the episode of That's My Bush! where George W. Bush accidentally takes ketamine and Marcia Wallace's character spins around saying "I'm in a K hole!"

I used my new APAP machine for the first time last night. It's nice to actually feel rested again when I wake up. Now I just need to get rid of my depression so I won't want to stay in bed all day.

I made a therapist appointment for next week. It's been over a month since my last session, and my depression has been on and off lately.

I watched a pair of webinars from the state's Small Business Development Center to get more information about starting a business.

Bucktown Tiger tweeted a picture of some of the damage from today's tornado that went through Little Rock. I'm thankful that Bucktown is safe. Colorado Springs is under a high wind warning today. I've been hearing the wind gusts once in a while.

I called the second psychiatrist that my therapist recommended. He isn't accepting new patients at this time. I've compiled a list of other psychiatrists covered by my insurance and will call them later today. My energy has just been low all week.

I got some Krispy Kreme doughnuts this weekend. The store had an offer to get two dozen doughnuts for $20.23, or roughly $10 less than regular price.

I made some chicken tikka masala in the slow cooker Saturday night. The pack of chicken breasts I bought was larger than I thought, so I still have a few left over for other recipes. I'll get some green chile sauce in a day or two for one of the recipes.

I watched the instructional video for using my new depression-fighting device. I noticed I didn't feel as anxious or depressed after using it, and I didn't get the "zoomies" when I was anxious.

The device I ordered to help with my depression will take a bit longer to be delivered. I got an e-mail a few days ago saying some of the information I provided didn't go through. I re-submitted the information and will hopefully get the device within the next week.

My idea for a Christmas vacation won't be as cheap as I thought. I read the fine print when looking up the "complimentary room stay" offers on Pop Slots; the offers can only be used Sundays through Thursdays and don't include holidays. My initial plan was to stay on Friday and Saturday night then check out on Christmas on Sunday. While a free room wouldn't be possible in this case, I looked up the room rates for Christmas weekend and found a single king room at the MGM Grand would only be around $218 total for two nights. There are other hotels I found that are much cheaper, though they don't have discounts through Pop Slots.

The combination of isolating due to COVID and not wanting to go out due to depression has caused me to put off taking out my trash for a while. I bagged it up today to take out later.