Jerzei Collie's journal

I rescheduled my appointment with my therapist for October 3rd since he won't be seeing patients next week.

"Glad it's not mouth feel."

I have an eye exam tomorrow afternoon. The eye doctor actually works remotely and can control the testing equipment from another location while an assistant is in the exam room with me.

"It's like Breaking Bad, except it's baking bread."

I need to clean out my car today and tomorrow. I made a Wednesday appointment to have my Subaru dealer repair the radio antenna and the torn carpeting on the driver's side.

I also need to reschedule a therapy appointment for next week. CenturyLink is installing my upgraded internet on Tuesday, but they can arrive any time between 8 AM and 5 PM.

The snow on the roads around my neighborhood was about halfway melted yesterday. I was able to pick up some groceries and attend a meeting last night.

I've filled out some forms to become a patient at a local psychiatrist's office. I just need to wait for the office to get back to me to make an appointment.

It looks like Romeo Rabbit is making some changes to the Rabbit Hole. I hope this will make the show even better.

I called the second psychiatrist that my therapist recommended. He isn't accepting new patients at this time. I've compiled a list of other psychiatrists covered by my insurance and will call them later today. My energy has just been low all week.

My job placement counselor postponed my Wednesday appointment until Thursday due to the snow in the forecast. I only got an inch or two at my condo. My therapist appointment still happened this afternoon. I went to Safeway afterwards since I was running low on butter and a few other items.

My therapist recommended a couple of psychiatrists who could help me determine if I need a new medication for my depression. I'll give them a call tomorrow to see if I can make an appointment.

My 2023 collie wall calendar arrived this afternoon.

One business idea my therapist suggested was running a food truck. I have occasionally thought about this idea when a particular furry talks about giving certain dishes a "Tex-Mex" flair. Of course, the cost to start a business like this would be too expensive. In addition to the truck and food expenses, there's also the licensing, insurance, advertising, and hiring a few people for shift work.

"I think that's a mail truck."
"How can you tell?"
"It's got truck nuts!"

I made a final decision on my Christmas vacation. I booked a flight to Las Vegas and a hotel room today, then reserved a spot at a parking lot near the Denver airport.

I got a haircut earlier while I was out. I was supposed to have a therapy appointment, but my therapist called and said he wouldn't be in the office today.

My therapist's receptionist called me back today. They are still having problems with their main phone line, so I was given a second number to call. I made a new appointment for tomorrow afternoon.

I found another non-commercial radio host opening in Denver at jazz station KUVO. I had previously applied with this organization at their hip-hop station, 104.7 The Drop. I sent them my updated resume today.

(Content Warning: suicide mentions)

The Colorado furry community lost one of its own last week. Posts I've read said Myst Dingo committed suicide. I saw photos of Myst's fursuit and couldn't remember if I'd seen him (in or out of suit) at either RMFC, DenFur or any local meets.

I mainly brought this up because I've been having my own struggles with depression lately. My sleep schedule is very random, and I'm often kept awake at night with worries about finding a new job or saving enough to retire in 10-15 years. I've also made last-minute decisions to not make deliveries or attend events that I love to attend because my mind just wants me to lay in bed. I also find I'm slacking off on cleaning my condo and letting trash pile up until I get enough motivation to take it out once every 1-2 weeks.

I have had suicidal thoughts occasionally, but in reality, I don't want to die. To paraphrase Maya Angelou, I want to both survive and thrive. I'm just having trouble getting help with the thriving part. I will make a therapist appointment this week since it's been a while since my last one.

It's snowing again. Luckily my therapy appointment happened before the snow started. The snow is only supposed to last until about 6 PM, then the temperature should still be just warm enough to melt it before sunset.