Fear and loathing
Sep. 9th, 2011 02:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jcollie719I should be asleep right now, but I've been kept awake by panic attacks and worrying about my future. The attacks happened Thursday morning when I was driving to work. I realized I had forgotten my ID badge and my cell phone, so I couldn't call work to tell them I'd be late. I drove to the Service Source office to have a spare badge printed. I started panicking, and the employee helping me said she'd let the shift leader know I couldn't make it in.
Although I'm thankful for finding a job and will continue to do it, I'd like to find something different where I'm not on my feet most of the time. I have to take a pain reliever during my shift due to backaches. Also, I keep getting assigned the afternoon/evening shift on Mondays after I said I wanted the morning shift (due to my Overeaters Anonymous meetings in the evenings.) I will likely have to quit Toastmasters as well since both work shifts on Friday interfere with that.
I'm also sad about not having someone to spend my time with. I was ripped off by a dating service a few years ago, and I haven't found anyone on FurryMate yet. I guess that service is geared toward younger furries, so I probably don't have a chance of finding someone there.
I do have a couple of things to look forward to: Today is pay day and there's 40 days until Oklacon.
Although I'm thankful for finding a job and will continue to do it, I'd like to find something different where I'm not on my feet most of the time. I have to take a pain reliever during my shift due to backaches. Also, I keep getting assigned the afternoon/evening shift on Mondays after I said I wanted the morning shift (due to my Overeaters Anonymous meetings in the evenings.) I will likely have to quit Toastmasters as well since both work shifts on Friday interfere with that.
I'm also sad about not having someone to spend my time with. I was ripped off by a dating service a few years ago, and I haven't found anyone on FurryMate yet. I guess that service is geared toward younger furries, so I probably don't have a chance of finding someone there.
I do have a couple of things to look forward to: Today is pay day and there's 40 days until Oklacon.
